May 23 Wednesday

Things are looking up around here. My sister Ann left yesterday and I felt a sinking hole in my stomach and fear of whether I could make it without her. The occupational therpaist was here when Cappy came to pick her up and take her to the airport so I didn't have much of a chance to say goodbye, which was probably good. I cried on and off all day yesterday. My New York sister Ann did so much for us while she was here for a week- for one thing I learned how to use our digital camera, she got us set up on a new DSL line, made us wireless, saved us tons of $$$ on our phone bill, and we got moved into a safer place for Ben and me to sleep where I don't have to worry so much about him escaping and wandering the streets of the south capitol neighborhood. Ben has mde such improvement in the last week- I have been less stressed and can concentrate more on helping him with his therapies etc. Last night our friend Frank came and gave me respit care for 3 glorious hours while I ran errands, went to the library and spent time with girlfriends. Man oh man, I felt like a different person when I got home last night. And this morning I got the call that our COPES worker may start tomorrow which is AWESOME news- that will give me 3 hours a day to catch up on stuff- who knows, maybe even WRITE!!! I plan to go to the Y and work out, run errands, hang out with friends, take the dog for a walk and hopefully go to the library and write on my laptop. I'm not sure I can finish my novel right now I am so absorbed with the present but I am thinking of writing a memoir about all this that's happening- I think it's an amazing story filled with hope- my writing teacher Jessica thought I should whip it out and self-publish it. I've already got a title- Born Again. Again- thanks everyone- for all your help. Love, B&B